Last time when I am upset,
I will call my boyfriend and go out for a hug, or for a drink.
Now, I am single.
When I am helpless, when I feel betrayed, I look call upon my Lord.
Somehow when I release my agony, my doubts and fear onto Him,
there is a huge burden off my heart immediately
Somehow I feel, things will be fine, it will eventually be taken care of
When I am alone,
I need to realise I have the Lord with me all the time
There are so many things that I want my Lord,
I know you know what I need, and what I want
Sometimes I feel I want too much
But again, nothing is too much for you
I have to believe that I deserve many more good things and wonders from you
I will look to you for all things,
Wisdom above all,
Beauty from inside out,
Patience, Discipline, Creativity...
So much more...
I am lacking in so much more...
There are so much more that I hope to accomplish
Fill me up my Lord
Humans...fail me all the time
All the time....
It really hurts and confuse me when it is those that I care dearly that hurts me
However, I know only your love is unwavering.
Sometimes I am so scare to admit that I have your love in me
Maybe I feel unworthy
But...I will look to the cross
and....I will...look to you for everything,
all things, good and better things.